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I've been doing a "re-training", a serious one and committing myself to getting back to my magickal roots -if you will. It's like a refresher course in certain ways but I have a LONG history with many studies so it was hard to really pick where to begin. ANYWAY, I did.

The meditations lately have been allot of merging. Merging mind with objects. Mind with plants. Mind with animals... I'm going to try a bird since when I'm meditating in the park I seem to attract allot. I bet they think I have food. lol. Anyway, I was just telling a friend about an experience in which I felt an entity of some sort at the park where I was meditating. I at first felt as if it was threatening. It was dog-like and it came up between my legs and my mind kept thinking, "it's gonna bite me!".

I stopped myself... and here is where I dinged on what you were saying in relation to what I was experiencing. I turned my energy around, from fear to embracing. In one moment putting energy against and in the next i was allowing for the energy to be, to hug it, to accept it. I should should say that I am distinguishing between my energy and my energetic field, on the level that is mine interacting with the environment. The level (energetically speaking) in which I act or react to forces in the universe. ( I see it as like a third or fourth layer outside of self, or better said a level of lighter vibration that is between 6 and 12 feet around me. NOT that it is actually a certain size or dimension, that's just the field). Anyway, that's the level I've been working at... it really isn't here or there, near or far, but it's a bit of all things and an interaction with all levels at once.

At this level I simply made the presence harmonious with my energy, or better said, I made my reflection of the universe harmonious and the threat that I felt simply dissolved.

What was more amazing is that there was a renewed sense of energy and vitality. As if I had integrated and thus become larger or more expansive. Rather than retracting with fear and attempting to defend, I embraced and grew. I felt more in my body, closer to my environment and had a greater interaction with things and the universe around me.

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SO what I am saying? LOL, My space became sacred by making all things sacred within it. There was no rejection of anything. Not the pipe that ran through the roots of the trees I felt beneath me. Not the remains I felt deep in the hill. The traffic, pigeons, passer's by, horns, planes, grass and me were all in a sacred space. Not because I MADE them enter the sacred space but because I made all things within me, reflection, mirrored, duplicate of the world around me, sacred within myself.

That, to me, is the key.

Now... hopefully you were getting what I was saying. I feel like I'm about to make a quantum leap and I keep applying this experience to all things where fear pokes up or adversity is made, I make it all sacred within myself because it is. And if it is, and it's happening, and I'm there, then I am participating in it. So what do I do? I make it sacred. I embrace it. I make light.

Make sense?

Scott